Today, Aby and I went to see a house.... a dream house. We stepped inside and we knew we wanted to buy it......but a few moments later we knew we could'nt! It was way beyond our budget. We loitered around some more and then finally...grudgingly.....left. But my heart stayed behind.....it walked into the bedrooms again,it stood in the balcony again, it felt the coziness of the family lounge again....it touched the water of the pool again....it felt the smoothness of the wooden floors again.......it smiled when it saw Kavin in the kid's room again......it took in the fresh fragrance of the flowers again. My heart stayed there! It refused to come back with me....it had abandoned my body and was floating around in that house!! I was walking in a trance. Aby understood but didnt say anything......he is more level headed and practical than me.
For hours, I kept up conjuring ways (and I dare not share them) to come up with something that would give me my dream house. I was restless.....uneasy.....urgent....and totally irrational. Exhausted with myself I finally went to sleep...and thats when I saw Kavin sleeping.... peacefully...lips slightly apart....spread out (like he owns the whole of the double bed)....with no care in the world! And my heart ...........it left the house and came rushing back.....back to Kavin.....back to Aby...back to my family. Back to where it belonged!
Hey! no way am I saying that my frivolous heart wont leave again to haunt the corridors of that house again....most probably thats the first thing it will do tomoro morning as I wake up....but I know it will come back!! Come back to the 'home' that we have created. :)
i totally agree wid u, the heart sud be allowed to wander n dream coz if we stop dreamin we'll stop livin.....legs firmly on the ground n ur head in the clouds (full of dreams), but the real home is where the heart is ;))
ReplyDeleteI kno danny.....such a difficult game of balancing....:)
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