Kavin's Day.....

And so....15th came and went....and it took Aby and me two days to recover from the onslaught!! I had taken days to prepare for this event for Kavin's sake....and it passed off in a flash (an exhausting, tiring, sapped out flash!! ).

It was so great to see my little baby jumping around joyfully, screaming with his friends, snatching his presents (when they forgot to hand it over), eating cake, messing around, kicking the balloons, staring agog at the birthday candle, screaming 'la-ee-on' on seeing the cake...so unstoppable....demanding....and gleeful. Raise this to the power of 26 and u will be able to comprehend what i am talking about......26 such little brats.......all equally energetic, excited and uncontrollable......like a terminator force!!!

It was a great day...and i thoroughly enjoyed myself. Flashing back two years...i would 've preferred a torture camp to a room full of kids....but now I would'nt exchange it for anything in the world!! Wow!! How one transforms!!

The party went off smoothly....for people who didnt know where all I goofed up!!! he! he! Should i let the cat out of the bag? oh heck....y not? Here goes:-

1st goof up - forgot to handover the birthday hats to the kids! Realised it when the party was about to end...so handed it then!

2nd goof up - one of the dishes on the menu (cheese sandwiches)....made with such details and pains was left forgotten in the fridge.....it was only later in the night....when all the crowd had left that i saw it.....and sheepishly offered it to Aby and some friends to finish it off!! Thankfully they did!!

3rd goof up - "aunty we are leaving"......"ok, bye kids....thanks for coming..ta-ta" Oooops forgot to give them return gifts! I think .....it was only after 6 children had left that i realised i had something called return gifts for them also! Panic!! Rushed the maid after them to hand over the goodies....

One would think that with 8 years in the Army ...I would atleast be a flawless event manager.....but evidently I have a lot to learn about birthday parties!! Well next year....no FU's.....i will 'cakewalk' thru it!! :)

The House.............

Whats more important......love or money? Whats more important...contentment or hunger to achieve more? Whats more important...to constantly keep dreaming( even if the unfulfilled ones cause heartache!) or to be satisfied with whatever you have? There is so much the world has to offer.......but why is it that we feel satisfied (momentarily) only if its something materialistic? Ramblings of an empty mind? ......not really.

Today, Aby and I went to see a house.... a dream house. We stepped inside and we knew we wanted to buy it......but a few moments later we knew we could'nt! It was way beyond our budget. We loitered around some more and then finally...grudgingly.....left. But my heart stayed behind.....it walked into the bedrooms again,it stood in the balcony again, it felt the coziness of the family lounge again....it touched the water of the pool again....it felt the smoothness of the wooden floors again.......it smiled when it saw Kavin in the kid's room again......it took in the fresh fragrance of the flowers again. My heart stayed there! It refused to come back with me....it had abandoned my body and was floating around in that house!! I was walking in a trance. Aby understood but didnt say anything......he is more level headed and practical than me.

For hours, I kept up conjuring ways (and I dare not share them) to come up with something that would give me my dream house. I was restless.....uneasy.....urgent....and totally irrational. Exhausted with myself I finally went to sleep...and thats when I saw Kavin sleeping.... peacefully...lips slightly apart....spread out (like he owns the whole of the double bed)....with no care in the world! And my heart ...........it left the house and came rushing back.....back to Kavin.....back to Aby...back to my family. Back to where it belonged!

Hey! no way am I saying that my frivolous heart wont leave again to haunt the corridors of that house again....most probably thats the first thing it will do tomoro morning as I wake up....but I know it will come back!! Come back to the 'home' that we have created. :)